Just a little monster... a furry one

Oh the guilt... oh the doubt.
Of just feeling what I'm not supposed to feel, not feeling what I am supposed to, or not knowing what I feel or what to feel...
Between doing the most stupidest thing ever for my own pleasure and misery, or not doing anything at all for my own misery and confort... or something else!
Shame... oh the shame, of not taking these isues head-on! Procrastinate... grow a grey... avoid... definha...