Just a little monster... a furry one

Oh the guilt... oh the doubt.
Of just feeling what I'm not supposed to feel, not feeling what I am supposed to, or not knowing what I feel or what to feel...
Between doing the most stupidest thing ever for my own pleasure and misery, or not doing anything at all for my own misery and confort... or something else!
Shame... oh the shame, of not taking these isues head-on! Procrastinate... grow a grey... avoid... definha...

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one step away from madness.
one step away from geniousness.
one step away from nothing.
one step away from anything good or bad.

I'm a little bit of nothing working hard to become alittle bit less.
I'm a little bit drowning working hard to sink deeper into myself.
I'm a big empty body with very little substance to tell something!

I'm not thinking of anyone today... and yet I've met you agin... shadow